Decision Making 101

Well, I have in the past needed to make some big decisions in my life, however I do not think that I have ever needed to make a decision which tore me apart quite like this last one. I realize that this is definitely not going to be the last one, but it is the first one which I have come out sick. physically. It was a week last Friday when I got the call from the Callaghan Valley Training Center. I was offered a spot on their team and I realize that this should have been a no-brainer to me, but my values made it hard. I had agreed about two weeks prior to now on a rent, and on joining a team in Thunder Bay because I had decided that I needed some training partners to help me get to the next level in cross country skiing. So now that I have put the context into context (so to speak) I think that I have become a little wiser, though not flattering myself, I am only 19, and a wise 19 year old does not exist. I'd like to think so, but its all in the reality. This Decision that I had forced myself into, proved to present a conflict that I had never experienced, as I mentioned above, this conflict was between what I knew was a good decision and my moral values. to me, I had committed to something, and so that is what I would stick to, at least in the past it is what I have stuck to. (not saying that i have thrown my moral values out the window, but I think that I have learned when to put them aside to attain something that I know will benefit me in my future). so as I had to, I did put my values aside, with the help of many people which I have to say I respect enormously for helping me find my way, I made the decision to head out west to Whistler and Callaghan valley to further push my skiing centered life. small lesson, but very important, i think, in forming myself as a person.